Tuesday, January 14, 2014

I was watching a show the other day and there was nudity in it.  At first I was rationalizing it "Eh, it's nothing I haven't seen before."  Then I started to wonder, when did I become so desensitized to this?  When did seeing "just a little" become okay?  When did this become NOT crossing a line?

Everyone has to draw a line in the sand, so to speak.  And it seems that it is becoming harder and harder to not move that line just so we can tell ourselves we haven't crossed it.  With the world throwing things at us, such as nudity and sex, on television, movies and books the line can start to become blurred, so we move it.  

One day it's "just" sex in the show/movie/book, next it's a little nudity, then the next thing you know you're looking back and the first line you drew is so far behind, you can't even see it anymore.  Man is asserting themselves and telling us this is not just okay to do/see, but it's normal.  Satan is working so hard to lead us away from what we know to be right.  

I was raised with certain standards, taught by both my parents and church leaders.  I was taught what is right and wrong in the eyes of God, and then taught to make a choice.  It seems that as I get older I have to work harder and harder to stop myself from moving that line, as though I've allowed myself to believe what the world believes.  It can sometimes be difficult to assert one's self control and say, "NO, this is not okay!"  I did turn off the show I was watching and told myself that I will not go back to it, no matter what!  I've had to do this before and I'm sure I'll have to do it again.  

Because despite what Wendy would always yell at me ("Oh, you're just SO perfect, aren't you?"), I am not perfect, I do give in to temptations and desires and curiosity.  I am still a work in progress, but that's okay, as long as I'm aware of it and keep working at it.